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spine was going to snap in a minute。 The pain got more difficult to bear every second。 I wouldn’t be able 
to bear it in silence for long。 Already; a whimper was rising in my throat。

 Melanie had nothing to say to me。 She was quietly working through her own relief and fury。 Jared had 
spoken to her; finally recognized her existence。 He had told her he loved her。 But he had kissed me。 She 
was trying to convince herself that there was no reason to be wounded by this; trying to believe all the 
solid reasons why this wasn’t what it felt like。 Trying; but not yet succeeding。 I could hear all this; but it 
was directed internally。 She wasn’t speaking to me—in the juvenile; petty sense of the phrase。 I was 
getting the cold shoulder。

 I felt an unfamiliar anger toward her。 Not like the beginning; when I feared her and wished for her 
eradication from my mind。 No; I felt my own sense of betrayal now。 How could she be angry withme for 
what had happened? How did that make sense? How was it my fault that I’d fallen in love because of the 

 

 Tears; much weaker than the others; flowed down my cheeks in silence。 Her hostility toward me 
simmered in my mind。

 Abruptly; the pain in my bruised; twisted back was too much。 The straw on the camel。

 “Ung;” I grunted; pushing against stone and cardboard as I shoved myself backward。

 I didn’t care about the noise anymore; I just wanted out。 I swore to myself that I would never cross the 
threshold of this wretched pit again—death first。 Literally。

 It was harder to worm out than it had been to dive in。 I wiggled and squirmed around until I felt like I 
was making things worse; bending myself into the shape of a lopsided pretzel。 I started to cry again; like 
a child; afraid that I would never get free。

 Melanie sighed。Hook your foot around the edge of the mouth and pull yourself out; she suggested。

 I ignored her; struggling to work my torso around a particularly pointy corner。 It jabbed me just under 
the ribs。

 Don’t be petty;she grumbled。

 That’s rich; ing from you。

 I know。She hesitated; then caved。Okay; sorry。 I am。 Look; I’m human。 It’s hard to be fair 
sometimes。 Wedon’t always feel the right thing; do the right thing。 The resentment was still there; 
but she was trying to forgive and forget that I’d just made out with her true love—that’s the way she 
thought of it; at least。

 I hooked my foot around the edge and yanked。 My knee hit the floor; and I used that leverage to lift my 
ribs off the point。 It was easier then to get my other foot out and yank again。 Finally; my hands found the 
floor and I shoved my way through; a breech birth; falling onto the dark green mat。 I lay there for a 
moment; facedown; breathing。 I was sure at this point that Jared was long gone; but I didn’t make certain 
of that right away。 I just breathed in and out until I felt prepared to lift my head。

 I was alone。 I tried to hold on to the relief and forget the sorrow this fact engendered。 It was better to be 
alone。 Less humiliating。

 I curled up on the mat; pressing my face against the musty fabric。 I wasn’t sleepy; but I was tired。 The 
crushing weight of Jared’s rejection was so heavy it exhausted me。 I closed my eyes and tried to think 
about things that wouldn’t make my stinging eyes tear again。 Anything but the appalled look on Jared’s 
face when he’d broken away from me…

 What was Jamie doing now? Did he know I was here; or was he looking for me? Ian would be asleep 
for a long time; he’d looked so exhausted。 Would Kyle wake soon? Would he e in search? Where 
was Jeb? I hadn’t seen him all day。 Was Doc really drinking himself unconscious? That seemed so unlike 
him…

 I woke slowly; roused by my growling stomach。 I lay quietly for a few minutes; trying to orient myself。 

 

 My stomach wouldn’t be ignored for long; though; and I rolled up onto my knees。 I must have slept for a 
while to be this hungry—missed a meal or two。 
I considered eating something from the supply pile in the hole—after all; I’d already damaged pretty 

much everything; maybe destroyed some。 But that only made me feel guiltier about the idea of taking 

more。 I’d go scavenge some rolls from the kitchen。 
I was feeling a little hurt; on top of all the big hurt; that I’d been down here so long without anyone 
ing to look for me—what a vain attitude; why should anyone care what happened to me?—so I was 
relieved and appeased to find Jamie sitting in the doorway to the big garden; his back turned on the 
human world behind him; unmistakably waiting for me。

 My eyes brightened; and so did his。 He scrambled to his feet; relief washing over his features。 
“You’re okay;” he said; I wished he were right。 He began to ramble。 “I mean; I didn’t think Jared was 
lying; but he said he thought you wanted to be alone; and Jeb said I couldn’t go check on you and that I 

had to stay right here where he could see that I wasn’t sneaking back there; but even though I didn’t 
think you were hurt or anything; it was hard to not know for sure; you know?” 
“I’m fine;” I told him。 But I held my arms out; seeking fort。 He threw his arms around my waist; and 

I was shocked to find that his head could rest on my shoulder while we stood。 
“Your eyes are red;” he whispered。 “Was he mean to you?” 
“No。” After all; people weren’t intentionally cruel to lab rats—they were just trying to get information。 
“Whatever you said to him; I think he believes us now。 About Mel; I mean。 How does she feel?” 
“She’s glad about that。” 
He nodded; pleased。 “How about you?” 
I hesitated; looking for a factual response。 “Telling the truth is easier for me than trying to hide it。” 
My evasion seemed to answer the question enough to satisfy him。 
Behind him; the light in the garden was red and fading。 The sun had already set on the desert。 
“I’m hungry;” I told him; and I pulled away from our hug。 
“I knew you would be。 I saved you something good。” 
I sighed。 “Bread’s fine。” 
“Let it go; Wanda。 Ian says you’re too self…sacrificing for your own good。” 
I made a face。 
“I think he’s got a point;” Jamie muttered。 “Even if we all want you here; you don’t belong until you 

 

 “I can’t ever belong。 And nobody really wants me here; Jamie。”

 “I do。”

 I didn’t fight with him; but he was wrong。 Not lying; because he believed what he was saying。 But what 

he really wanted was Melanie。 He didn’t separate us the way he should。

 Trudy and Heidi were baking rolls in the kitchen and sharing a bright green; juicy apple。 They took turns 
taking bites。

 “It’s good to see you; Wanda;” Trudy said sincerely; covering her mouth while she spoke because she 
was still chewing her last bite。 Heidi nodded in greeting; her teeth sunk in the apple。 Jamie nudged me; 
trying to be inconspicuous about it—pointing out that people wanted me。 He wasn’t making allowances 

for mon courtesy。

 “Did you save her dinner?” he asked eagerly。

 “Yep;” Trudy said。 She bent down beside the oven and came back with a metal tray in her hand。 “Kept 

it warm。 It’s probably nasty and tough now; but it’s better than the usual。”

 On the tray was a rather large piece of red meat。 My mouth started to water; even as I rejected the 
portion I’d been allotted。

 “It’s too much。”

 “We have to eat all the perishables the first day;” Jamie encouraged me。 “Everyone eats themselves 

sick—it’s a tradition。”

 “You need the protein;” Trudy added。 “We were on cave rations too long。 I’m surprised no one’s in 
worse shape。”

 I ate my protein while Jamie watched with hawk…like attention as each bite traveled from the tray to my 

mouth。 I ate it all to please him; though it made my stomach ache to eat so much。

 The kitchen started to fill up again as I was finishing。 A few had apples in their hands—all sharing with 
someone else。 Curious eyes examined the sore side of my face。

 “Why’s everyone ing here now?” I muttered to Jamie。 It was black outside; the dinner hour long 

over。

 Jamie looked at me blankly for a second。 “To hear you teach。” His tone added the wordsof course。

 “Are you kidding me?”

 “I told you nothing’s changed。”

 I stared around the narrow room。 It wasn’t a full house。 No Doc tonight; and none of the returned 
raiders; which meant no Paige; either。 No Jeb; no Ian; no Walter。 A few others missing: Travis; Carol; 
Ruth Ann。 But more than I would have thought; if I’d thought anyone would consider following the 

 

 “Can we go back to the Dolphins; where we left off?” Wes asked; interrupting my evaluation of the 
room。 I could see that he’d taken it upon himself to start the ball rolling; rather than that he was vitally 
interested in the kinship circles of an alien planet。

 Everyone looked at me expectantly。 Apparently; life was not changing as much as I’d thought。

 I took a tray of rolls from Heidi’s hands and turned to shove it into the stone oven。 I started talking with 
my back still turned。

 “So… um… hmm… the; uh; third set of grandparents… They traditionally serve the munity; as they 
see it。

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