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that’s assuming a sense of ethics that clearly does not apply。”


 I wrapped my arms around myself。


 “Jeb does have a point; though—that’s what’s killing me! Whatare you after? The Seekers’ search 
wasn’t well directed or even… suspicious。 They only seemed to be looking for you—not for us。 So 
maybe they didn’t know what you were up to。 Maybe you’re freelancing? Some kind of undercover 
thing。 Or…”

 It was easier to ignore him when he was speculating so foolishly。 I focused on my knees。 They were 
dirty; as usual; purple and black。

 “Maybe they’re right—about the killing…you part; anyway。”

 Unexpectedly; his fingers brushed lightly once across the goose bumps his words had raised on my arm。 
His voice was softer when he spoke again。 “Nobody’s going to hurt you now。 As long as you aren’t 
causing any trouble…” He shrugged。 “I can sort of see their point; and maybe; in a sick way; itwould be 
wrong; like they say。 Maybe there is no justifiable reason to… Except that Jamie…”

 My head flipped up—his eyes were sharp; scrutinizing my reaction。 I regretted showing interest and 

watched my knees again。

 “It scares me how attached he’s getting;” Jared muttered。 “Shouldn’t have left him behind。 I never 
imagined… And I don’t know what to do about it now。 He thinks Mel’s alive in there。 What will it do to 
him when… ?”

 I noticed how he saidwhen; notif。 No matter what promises he’d made; he didn’t see me lasting in the 

long term。

 “I’m surprised you got to Jeb;” he reflected; changing the subject。 “He’s a canny old guy。 He sees 
through deceptions so easily。 Till now。”

 He thought about that for a minute。

 “Not much for conversation; are you?”

 There was another long silence。 

 

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would I know? I hate the way their logic makes sense to me。 There’s got to be another explanation。” 
Melanie struggled again to speak; not as viciously as before; this time without hope of breaking through。 
I kept my arms and lips locked。


 Jared moved; shifting away from the wall so that his body was turned toward me。 I watched the 
movement from the corner of my eye。


 “Why are you here?” he whispered。 
I peeked up at his face。 It was gentle; kind; almost the way Melanie remembered it。 I felt my control 
slipping; my lips trembled。 Keeping my arms locked took all my strength。 I wanted to touch his face。I 
wanted it。 Melanie did not like this。


 If you won’t let me talk; then at least keep your hands to yourself;she hissed。

 I’m trying。 I’m sorry。I was sorry。 This was hurting her。 We were both hurting; different hurts。 It was 
hard to know who had it worse at the moment。 
Jared watched me curiously while my eyes filled again。 
“Why?” he asked softly。 “You know; Jeb has this crazy idea that you’re here for me and Jamie。 Isn’t 

that nuts?” 
My mouth half…opened; I quickly bit down on my lip。 
Jared leaned forward slowly and took my face between both his hands。 My eyes closed。 
“Won’t you tell me?” 
My head shook once; fast。 I wasn’t sure who did it。 Was it me saying won’t or Melanie saying can’t? 
His hands tightened under my jaw。 I opened my eyes; and his face was inches away from mine。 My 

heart fluttered; my stomach dropped—I tried to breathe; but my lungs did not obey。

 I recognized the intention in his eyes; I knew how he would move; exactly how his lips would feel。 And 
yet it was so new to me; a first more shocking than any other; as his mouth pressed against mine。 
I think he meant just to touch his lips to mine; to be soft; but things changed when our skin met。 His 

mouth was abruptly hard and rough; his hands trapped my face to his while his lips moved mine in urgent; 

unfamiliar patterns。 It was so different from remembering; so much stronger。 My head swam incoherently。 
The body revolted。 I was no longer in control of it—it was in control of me。 It was not Melanie—the 
body was stronger than either of us now。 Our breathing echoed loudly: mine wild and gasping; his fierce; 
almost a snarl。

 My arms broke free from my control。 My left hand reached for his face; his hair; to wind my fingers in it。 
My right hand was faster。 Was not mine。 

 

 The force of it was not enough to move him far; but he scrambled away from me the instant our lips 
were no longer connected; gaping with horrorstruck eyes at my horrorstruck expression。

 I stared down at the still…clenched fist; as repulsed as if I’d found a scorpion growing on the end of my 
arm。 A gasp of revulsion choked its way out of my throat。 I grabbed the right wrist with my left hand; 
desperate to keep Melanie from using my body for violence again。

 I glanced up at Jared。 He was staring at the fist I restrained; too; the horror fading; surprise taking its 
place。 In that second; his expression was entirely defenseless。 I could easily read his thoughts as they 
moved across his unlocked face。

 This was not what he had expected。 And he’d had expectations; that was plain to see。 This had been a 
test。 A test he’d thought he was prepared to evaluate。 A test with results he’d anticipated with 
confidence。 But he’d been surprised。

 Did that mean pass or fail?

 The pain in my chest was not a surprise。 I already knew that a breaking heart was more than an 
exaggeration。

 In a fight…or…flight situation; I never had a choice; it would always be flight for me。 Because Jared was 
between me and the darkness of the tunnel exit; I wheeled and threw myself into the box…packed hole。

 The boxes crunched; crackled; and cracked as my weight shoved them into the wall; into the floor。 I 
wriggled my way into the impossible space; twisting around the heavier squares and crushing the others。 I 
felt his fingers scrape across my foot as he made a grab for my ankle; and I kicked one of the more solid 
boxes between us。 He grunted; and despair wrapped choking hands around my throat。 I hadn’t meant to 
hurt him again; I hadn’t meant to strike。 I was only trying to escape。

 I didn’t hear my own sobbing; loud as it was; until I could go no farther into the crowded hole and the 
sound of my thrashing stopped。 When I did hear myself; heard the ragged; tearing gasps of agony; I was 
mortified。

 So mortified; so humiliated。 I was horrified at myself; at the violence I’d allowed to flow through my 
body; whether consciously or not; but that was not why I was sobbing。 I was sobbing because it had 
been a test; and; stupid; stupid; stupid; emotional creature that I was; I wanted it to be real。

 Melanie was writhing in agony inside me; and it was hard to make sense of the double pain。 I felt as 
though I was dying because it was not real; she felt as though she was dying because; to her; it had felt 
real enough。 In all that she’d lost since the end of her world; so long ago; she’d never before felt 
betrayed。 When her father had brought the Seekers after his children; she’d known it was nothim。 There 
was no betrayal; only grief。 Her father was dead。 But Jared was alive and himself。

 No one’s betrayed you; stupid;I railed at her。 I wanted her pain to stop。 It was too much; the extra 
burden of her agony。 Mine was enough。

 How could he? How?she ranted; ignoring me。 

 

 One word snapped us back from the edge of hysteria。

 From the mouth of the hole; Jared’s low; rough voice—broken and strangely childlike—asked; “Mel?”

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 Mel?” he asked again; the hope he didn’t want to feel coloring his tone。

 My breath caught in another sob; an aftershock。

 “You know that was for you; Mel。 Youknow that。 Not for h—it。 You know I wasn’t kissing it。”

 My next sob was louder; a moan。 Why couldn’t I shut up? I tried holding my breath。

 “If you’re in there; Mel…” He paused。

 Melanie hated the “if。” A sob burst up through my lungs; and I gasped for air。

 “I love you;” Jared said。 “Even if you’re not there; if you can’t hear me。 I love you。”

 I held my breath again; biting my lip until it bled。 The physical pain didn’t distract me as much as I 
wished it would。

 It was silent outside the hole; and then silent inside; too; as I turned blue。 I listened intently; concentrating 
only on what I could hear。 I wouldn’t think。 There was no sound。

 I was twisted into the most impossible position。 My head was the lowest point; the right side of my face 
pressed against the rough rock floor。 My shoulders were slanted around a crumpled box edge; the right 
higher than the left。 My hips angled the opposite way; with my left calf pressed to the ceiling。 Fighting 
with the boxes had left bruises—I could feel them forming。 I knew I would have to find some way to 
explain to Ian and Jamie that I had done this to myself; but how? What should I say? How could I tell 
them that Jared had kissed me as a test; like giving a lab rat a jolt of electricity to observe its reaction?

 And how long was I supposed to hold this position? I didn’t want to make any noise; but it felt like my 
spine was going to snap in a minute。 The pain got more difficult to bear every secon

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