the crime of sylvestre bonnard(西维斯特·博拉德的罪行)-第35节
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beautiful as a spaniel's； she said；
〃I know I said a foolish think； but； still； I do not see any reason why
you should be so pleasing to Mademoiselle Prefere。 And； nevertheless；
you seem to please her a great deala very great deal。 She called me one
day； and asked me all sorts of questions about you。〃
〃Really？〃
〃Yes； she wanted to find out all about your house。 Just think！ she even
asked me how old your servant was！〃
And Jeanne burst out laughing。
〃Well； what do you think about it？〃 I asked。
She remained a long while with her eyes fixed on the worn…out cloth
of her shoes； and seemed to be thinking very deeply。 Finally； looking up
again； she answered；
〃I am distrustful。 Isn't it very natural to feel uneasy about what one
cannot understand； I know I am foolish； but you won't be offended with
me； will you？〃
〃Why； certainly not； Jeanne。 I am not a bit offended with you。〃
I must acknowledge that I was beginning to share her surprise； and I
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began to turn over in my old head the singular thought of this young girl
〃One is uneasy about what one cannot understand。〃
But； with a fresh burst of merriment； she cried out；
〃She asked me。。。guess！ I will give you a hundred guessesa thousand
guesses。 You give it up？。。。 She asked me if you liked good eating。〃
〃And how did you receive this shower of interrogations； Jeanne？〃
〃I replied； 'I don't know； Mademoiselle。' And Mademoiselle then said
to me； 'You are a little fool。 The least details of the life of an eminent man
ought to be observed。 Please to know； Mademoiselle； that Monsieur
Sylvestre Bonnard is one of the glories of France！'〃
〃Stuff！〃 I exclaimed。 〃And what did YOU think about it；
Mademoiselle？〃
〃I thought that Mademoiselle Prefere was right。 But I don't care at
all。。。（I know it is naughty what I am going to say）。。。I don't care a bit； not a
bit； whether Mademoiselle Prefere is or is not right about anything。〃
〃Well； then； content yourself； Jeanne； Mademoiselle Prefere was not
right。〃
〃Yes； yes； she was quite right that time； but I wanted to love
everybody who loved youeverybody without exceptionand I cannot do
it； because it would never be possible for me to love Mademoiselle
Prefere。〃
〃Listen； Jeanne；〃 I answered； very seriously； 〃Mademoiselle Prefere
has become good to you； try now to be good to her。〃
She answered sharply；
〃It is very easy for Mademoiselle Prefere to be good to me； and it
would be very difficult indeed for me to be good to her。〃
I then said； in a still more serious tone：
〃My child； the authority of a teacher is sacred。 You must consider your
schoolmistress as occupying the place to you of the mother whom you
lost。〃
I had scarcely uttered this solemn stupidity when I bitterly regretted it。
The child turned pale； and the tears sprang to her eyes。
〃Oh； Monsieur！〃 she cried； 〃how could you say such a thingYOU？
You never knew mamma！〃
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Ay； just Heaven！ I did know her mamma。 And how indeed could I have
been foolish enough to have said what I did？
She repeated； as if to herself：
〃Mamma！ my dear mamma！ my poor mamma！〃
A lucky chance prevented me from playing the fool any further。 I do
not know how it happened at that moment I looked as if I was going to cry。
At my age one does not cry。 It must have been a bad cough which brought
the tears into my eyes。 But； anyhow； appearances were in my favour。
Jeanne was deceived by them。 Oh！ what a pure and radiant smile suddenly
shone out under her beautiful wet eyelashes like sunshine among
branches after a summer shower！ We took each other by the hand and sat a
long while without saying a word absolutely happy。 Those celestial
harmonies which I once thought I heard thrilling through my soul while I
knelt before that tomb to which a saintly woman had guided me； suddenly
awoke again in my heart； slow…swelling through the blissful moments with
infinite softness。 Doubtless the child whose hand pressed my own also
heard them； and then； elevated by their enchantment above the material
world； the poor old man and the artless young girl both knew that a tender
ghostly Presence was making sweetness all about them。
〃My child；〃 I said at last； 〃I am very old； and many secrets of life；
which you will only learn little by little； have been revealed to me。 Believe
me； the future is shaped out of the past。 Whatever you can do to live
contentedly here； without impatience and without fretting； will help you
live some future day in peace and joy in your own home。 Be gentle； and
learn how to suffer。 When one suffers patiently one suffers less。 If you
should be badly treated； Madame de Gabry and I would both consider
ourselves badly treated in your person。〃。。。
〃Is your health very good indeed； dear Monsieur？〃
It was Mademoiselle Prefere； approaching stealthily behind us； who
had asked the question with a peculiar smile。 My first idea was to tell her
to go to the devil； my second； that her mouth was as little suited for
smiling as a frying…pan for musical purposes； my third was to answer her
politely and assure her that I hoped she was very well。
She sent the young girl out to take a walk in the garden； then； pressing
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one hand upon her pelerine and extending the other towards the Tableau
d'Honneur； she showed me the name of Jeanne Alexandre written at the
head of the list in large text。
〃I am very much pleased；〃 I said to her； 〃to find that you are satisfied
with the behaviour of that child。 Nothing could delight me more； and I am
inclined to attribute this happy result to your affectionate vigilance。 I have
taken the liberty to send you a few books which I think may serve both to
instruct and to amuse young girls。 You will be able to judge by glancing
over them whether they are adapted to the perusal of Mademoiselle
Alexandre and her companions。〃
The gratitude of the schoolmistress not only overflowed in words； but
seemed about to take the form of tearful sensibility。 In order to change the
subject I observed；
〃What a beautiful day this is！〃
〃Yes；〃 she replied； 〃and if this weather continues； those dear children
will have a nice time for their enjoyment。〃 〃I suppose you are referring to
the holidays。 But Mademoiselle Alexandre； who has no relatives； cannot
go away。 What in the world is she going to do all alone in this great big
house？〃
〃Oh； we will do everything we can to amuse her。。。。 I will take her to
the museums and…〃
She hesitated； blushed； and continued；
〃and to your house； if you will permit me。〃
〃Why of course！〃 I exclaimed。 〃That is a first…rate idea。〃
We separated very good friends with one another。 I with her； because I
had been able to obtain what I desired； she with me； for no appreciable
motivewhich fact； according to Plato； elevated her into the highest rank
of the Hierarchy of Souls。
。。。And nevertheless it is not without a presentiment of evil that I find
myself on the point of introducing this person into my house。 And I would
be very glad indeed to see Jeanne in charge of anybody else rather than of
her。 Maitre Mouche and Mademoiselle Prefere are characters whom I
cannot at all understand。 I never can imagine why they say what they do
say； nor why they do what they do； they have a mysterious something in
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common which makes me feel uneasy。 As Jeanne said to me a little while
ago： 〃One is uneasy about what one cannot understand。〃
Alas！ at my age one has learned only too well how little sincerity there
is in life； one has learned only too well how much one loses by living a
long time in
