the crime of sylvestre bonnard(西维斯特·博拉德的罪行)-第34节
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be conducted with a great deal of circumspection； and with a view to that
future state of dependence they must occupy in society。 Perhaps you are
not aware that the late Noel Alexandre died a bankrupt； and that his
daughter is being educated almost by charity？〃
〃Oh！ Monsieur！〃 I exclaimed； 〃do not say it！ To say it is to pay oneself
back； and then the statement ceases to be true。〃
〃The liabilities of the estate；〃 continued the notary； 〃exceeded the
assets。 But I was able to effect a settlement with the creditors in favour of
the minor。〃
He undertook to explain matters in detail。 I declined to listen to these
explanations； being incapable of understanding business methods in
general； and those of Maitre Mouche in particular。 The notary then took it
upon himself to justify Mademoiselle Prefere's educational system； and
observed by way of conclusion；
〃It is not by amusing oneself that one can learn。〃
〃It is only by amusing oneself that one can learn；〃 I replied。 〃The
whole art of teaching is only the art of awakening the natural curiosity of
young minds for the purpose of satisfying it afterwards； and curiosity itself
can be vivid and wholesome only in proportion as the mind is contented
and happy。 Those acquirements crammed by force into the minds of
children simply clog and stifle intelligence。 In order that knowledge be
properly digested； it must have been swallowed with a good appetite。 I
know Jeanne！ If that child were intrusted to my care； I should make of her…
…not a learned woman； for I would look to her future happiness onlybut a
child full of bright intelligence and full of life； in whom everything
beautiful in art or nature would awaken some gentle responsive thrill。 I
would teach her to live in sympathy with all that is beautifulcomely
landscapes； the ideal scenes of poetry and history； the emotional charm of
noble music。 I would make lovable to her everything I would wish her to
love。 Even her needlework I would make pleasurable to her； by a proper
choice of fabrics； the style of embroideries； the designs of lace。 I would
give her a beautiful dog； and a pony to teach her how to manage animals； I
would give her birds to take care of； so that she could learn the value of
even a drop of water and a crumb of bread。 And in order that she should
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have a still higher pleasure； I would train her to find delight in exercising
charity。 And inasmuch as none of us may escape pain； I should teach her
that Christian wisdom which elevates us above all suffering； and gives a
beauty even to grief itself。 That is my idea of the right way to educate a
young girl。〃
〃I yield； Monsieur；〃 replied Maitre Mouche； joining his black…gloved
hands together。
And he rose。
〃Of course you understand；〃 I remarked； as I went to the door with
him； 〃that I do not pretend for a moment to impose my educational system
upon Mademoiselle Prefere； it is necessarily a private one； and quite
incompatible with the organisation of even the best…managed boarding
schools。 I only ask you to persuade her to give Jeanne less work and more
play； and not to punish her except in case of absolute necessity； and to let
her have as much freedom of mind and body as the regulations of the
institution permit。〃
It was with a pale and mysterious smile that Maitre Mouche informed
me that my observations would be taken in good part； and should receive
all possible consideration。
Therewith he made me a little bow； and took his departure； leaving me
with a peculiar feeling of discomfort and uneasiness。 I have met a great
many strange characters in my time； but never any at all resembling either
this notary or this schoolmistress。
July 6。
Maitre Mouche has so much delayed me by his visit that I gave up
going to see Jeanne that day。 Professional duties kept me very busy for the
rest of the week。 Although at the age when most men retire altogether
from active life； I am still attached by a thousand ties to the society in
which I have lived。 I have to reside at meetings of academies； scientific
congresses； assemblies of various learned bodies。 I am overburdened with
honorary functions； I have seven of these in one governmental department
alone。 The bureaux would be very glad to get rid of them。 But habit is
stronger than both of us together； and I continue to hobble up the stairs of
various government buildings。 Old clerks point me out to each other as I
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go by like a ghost wandering through the corridors。 When one has become
very old one finds it extremely difficult to disappear。 Nevertheless； it is
time； as the old song says； 'de prendre ma retraite et de songer a faire un
fin〃to retire on my pension and prepare myself to die a good death。
An old marchioness； who used to be a friend of Hevetius in her youth；
and whom I once met at my father's house when a very old woman； was
visited during her last sickness by the priest of her parish； who wanted to
prepare her to die。
〃Is that really necessary？〃 she asked。 〃I see everybody else manage it
perfectly well the first time。〃
My father went to see her very soon afterwards and found her
extremely ill。
〃Good…evening； my friend！〃 she said； pressing his hand。 〃I am going to
see whether God improves upon acquaintance。〃
So were wont to die the belles amies of the philosophers。 Such an end
is certainly not vulgar nor impertinent； and such levities are not of the sort
that emanate from dull minds。 Nevertheless； they shock me。 Neither my
fears nor my hopes could accommodate themselves to such a mode of
departure。 I would like to make mine with a perfectly collected mind； and
that is why I must begin to think； in a year or two； about some way of
belonging to myself； otherwise； I should certainly risk。。。。 But； hush！ let
Him not hear His name and turn to look as He passes by！ I can still lift my
fagot without His aid。
。。。I found Jeanne very happy indeed。 She told me that； on the Thursday
previous； after the visit of her guardian； Mademoiselle Prefere had set her
free from the ordinary regulations and lightened her tasks in several ways。
Since that lucky Thursday she could walk in the gardenwhich only
lacked leaves and flowersas much as she liked； and she had been given
facilities to work at her unfortunate little figure of Saint…George。
She said to me； with a smile；
〃I know very well that I owe all of this to you。〃 I tried to talk with her
about other matters； but I remarked that she could not attend to what I was
saying； in spite of her effort to do so。
〃I see you are thinking about something else；〃 I said。 〃Well； tell me
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what it is； for； if you do not； we shall not be able to talk to each other at all；
which would be very unworthy of both of us。〃
She answered；
〃Oh！ I was really listening to you； Monsieur； but it is true that I was
thinking about something else。 You will excuse me； won't you？ I could not
help thinking that Mademoiselle Prefere must like you very； very much
indeed； to have become so good to me all of a sudden。〃
Then she looked at me in an odd； smiling； frightened way； which made
me laugh。
〃Does that surprise you？〃 I asked。 〃Very much；〃 she replied。
〃Please tell me why？〃
〃Because I can see no reason； no reason at all。。。but there！。。。no reason at
all why you should please Mademoiselle Prefere so much。〃
〃So； then； you think I am very displeasing； Jeanne？〃
She bit her lips； as if to punish them for having made a mistake； and
then； in a coaxing way； looking at me with great soft eyes； gentle and
beautiful as a spaniel's； she said；
〃I know I said a foolish think； but； stil
