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dinconcealingthisblotoffriendshipagainstpolicy;butsoonerorlaterthenewspaperswillbeinformedofit;andwilldenouncehimtothecountryasanobjectofdistrust。
forwhetherhatredbehonestordishonest;itnevershrinksfromanyaccusation。sometimesitevenproceedstocrime。theusherassuredmethatseveralwarningshadbeengiventheministerwhichhadmadehimfearthevengeanceofanassassin;andthathenolongerventuredoutonfoot。
then;fromonethingtoanother;ilearnedwhattemptationscameintomisleadoroverehisjudgment;howhefoundhimselffatallyledintoobliquitieswhichhecouldnotbutdeplore。misledbypassion;over…persuadedbyentreaties;orpelledforreputationssake;hehasmanytimesheldthebalancewithanunsteadyhand。howsadtheconditionofhimwhoisinauthority!notonlyarethemiseriesofpowerimposeduponhim;butitsvicesalso;which;notcontentwithtorturing;succeedincorruptinghim。
weprolongedourconversationtillitwasinterruptedbytheministersreturn。hethrewhimselfoutofthecarriagewithahandfulofpapers;andwithananxiousmannerwentintohisownroom。aninstantafterwardhisbellwasheard;hissecretarywascalledtosendoffnoticestoallthoseinvitedfortheevening;theballwouldnottakeplace;theyspokemysteriouslyofbadnewstransmittedbythetelegraph;andinsuchcircumstancesanentertainmentwouldseemtoinsultthepublicsorrow。
itookleaveofmyfriend;andhereiamathome。whatihavejustseenisananswertomydoubtstheotherday。nowiknowwithwhatpangsmenpayfortheirdignities;nowiunderstandthatfortunesellswhatwebelieveshegives。
thisexplainstomethereasonwhycharlesvaspiredtothereposeofthecloister。
andyetihaveonlyglancedatsomeofthesufferingsattachedtopower。
whatshallisayofthefallsinwhichitspossessorsareprecipitatedfromtheheightsofheaventotheverydepthsoftheearth?ofthatpathofpainalongwhichtheymustforeverbeartheburdenoftheirresponsibility?ofthatchainofdecorumsandennuiswhichenpasseseveryactoftheirlives;andleavesthemsolittleliberty?
thepartisansofdespotismadherewithreasontoformsandceremonies。
ifmenwishtogiveunlimitedpowertotheirfellow…man;theymustkeephimseparatedfromordinaryhumanity;theymustsurroundhimwithacontinualworship;and;byaconstantceremonial;keepupforhimthesuperhumanparttheyhavegrantedhim。ourmasterscannotremainabsolute;exceptonconditionofbeingtreatedasidols。
but;afterall;theseidolsaremen;and;iftheexclusivelifetheymustleadisaninsulttothedignityofothers;itisalsoatormenttothemselves。everyoneknowsthelawofthespanishcourt;whichusedtoregulate;hourbyhour;theactionsofthekingandqueen;〃sothat;〃
saysvoltaire;〃byreadingitonecantellallthatthesovereignsofspainhavedone;orwilldo;fromphilipiitothedayofjudgment。〃itwasbythislawthatphilipiii;whensick;wasobligedtoenduresuchanexcessofheatthathediedinconsequence;becausethedukeofuzeda;whoalonehadtherighttoputoutthefireintheroyalchamber;happenedtobeabsent。
whenthewifeofcharlesiiwasrunawaywithonaspiritedhorse;shewasabouttoperishbeforeanyonedaredtosaveher;becauseetiquetteforbadethemtotouchthequeen。twoyoungofficersendangeredtheirlivesforherbystoppingthehorse。theprayersandtearsofherwhomtheyhadjustsnatchedfromdeathwerenecessarytoobtainpardonfortheircrime。everyoneknowstheanecdoterelatedbymadamecampanofmarieantoinette;wifeoflouisxvi。oneday;beingathertoilet;whenthechemisewasabouttobepresentedtoherbyoneoftheassistants;aladyofveryancientfamilyenteredandclaimedthehonor;asshehadtherightbyetiquette;but;atthemomentshewasabouttofulfilherduty;aladyofhigherrankappeared;andinherturntookthegarmentshewasabouttooffertothequeen;whenathirdladyofstillhighertitlecameinherturn;andwasfollowedbyafourth;whowasnootherthanthekingssister。thechemisewasinthismannerpassedfromhandtohand;withceremonies;courtesies;andpliments;beforeitcametothequeen;who;halfnakedandquiteashamed;wasshiveringwithcoldforthegreathonorofetiquette。
12th;sevenoclock;p。m鈥斺�攐ninghomethisevening;isaw;standingatthedoorofahouse;anoldman;whoseappearanceandfeaturesremindedmeofmyfather。therewasthesamebeautifulsmile;thesamedeepandpenetratingeye;thesamenoblebearingofthehead;andthesamecarelessattitude。
ibeganlivingoveragainthefirstyearsofmylife;andrecallingtomyselftheconversationsofthatguidewhomgodinhismercyhadgivenme;andwhominhisseverityhehadtoosoonwithdrawn。
whenmyfatherspoke;itwasnotonlytobringourtwomindstogetherbyaninterchangeofthought;buthiswordsalwayscontainedinstruction。
notthatheendeavoredtomakemefeelitso:myfatherfearedeverythingthathadtheappearanceofalesson。heusedtosaythatvirtuecouldmakeherselfdevotedfriends;butshedidnottakepupils:thereforehewasnotdesiroustoteachgoodness;hecontentedhimselfwithsowingtheseedsofit;certainthatexperiencewouldmakethemgrow。
howoftenhasgoodgrainfallenthusintoacorneroftheheart;and;whenithasbeenlongforgotten;allatonceputforththebladeandeintoear!itisatreasurelaidasideinatimeofignorance;andwedonotknowitsvaluetillwefindourselvesinneedofit。
amongthestorieswithwhichheenlivenedourwalksorourevenings;thereisonewhichnowreturnstomymemory;doubtlessbecausethetimeisetoderiveitslessonfromit。
myfather;whowasapprenticedattheageoftwelvetooneofthosetradingcollectorswhocallthemselvesnaturalists;becausetheyputallcreationunderglassesthattheymaysellitbyretail;hadalwaysledalifeofpovertyandlabor。obligedtorisebeforedaybreak;byturnsshop…boy;clerk;andlaborer;hewasmadetobearalonealltheworkofatradeofwhichhismasterreapedalltheprofits。intruth;thislatterhadapeculiartalentformakingthemostofthelaborofotherpeople。
thoughunfithimselffortheexecutionofanykindofwork;nooneknewbetterhowtosellit。hiswordswereanet;inwhichpeoplefoundthemselvestakenbeforetheywereaware。andsincehewasdevotedtohimselfalone;andlookedontheproducerashisenemy;andthebuyerasprey;heusedthembothwiththatobstinateperseverancewhichavariceteaches。
myfatherwasaslavealltheweek;andcouldcallhimselfhisownonlyonsunday。themasternaturalist;whousedtospendthedayatthehouseofanoldfemalerelative;thengavehimhislibertyonconditionthathedinedout;andathisownexpense。butmyfatherusedsecretlytotakewithhimacrustofbread;whichhehidinhisbotanizing…box;and;leavingparisassoonasitwasday;hewouldwanderfarintothevalleyofmontmorency;thewoodofmeudon;oramongthewindingsofthemarne。
excitedbythefreshair;thepenetratingperfumeofthegrowingvegetation;orthefragranceofthehoneysuckles;hewouldwalkonuntilhungerorfatiguemadeitselffelt。thenhewouldsitunderahedge;orbythesideofastream;andwouldmakearusticfeast;byturnsonwatercresses;woodstrawberries;andblackberriespickedfromthehedges;hewouldgatherafewplants;readafewpagesofflorian;theningreatestvogue;ofgessner;whowasjusttranslated;orofjeanjacques;ofwhomhepossessedthreeoldvolumes。thedaywasthuspassedalternatelyinactivityandrest;inpursuitandmeditation;untilthedecliningsunwarnedhimtotakeagaintheroadtoparis;wherehewouldarrive;hisfeettornanddusty;buthismindinvigoratedforawholeweek。
oneday;ashewasgoingtowardthewoodofviroflay;hemet;closetoit;astrangerwhowasoccupiedinbotanizingandinsortingtheplantshehadjustgathered。hewasanelderlymanwithanhonestface;buthiseyes;whichwereratherdeep…setunderhiseyebrows;hadasomewhatuneasyandtimidexpression。hewasdressedinabrownclothcoat;agraywaistcoat;blackbreeches;andworstedstockings;andheldanivory…headedcaneunderhisarm。hisappearancewasthatofasmallretiredtradesmanwhowaslivingonhismeans;andratherbelowthegoldenmeanofhorace。
myfather;whohadgreatrespectforage;civillyraisedhishattohimashepassed。indoingso;aplantheheldfellfromhishand;thestrangerstoopedtotakeitup;andrecognizedit。
〃itisadeutariaheptaphyllos;〃saidhe;〃ihavenotyetseenanyoftheminthesewoods;didyoufinditnearhere;sir?〃
myfatherrepliedthatitwastobefoundinabundanceonthetopofthehill;towardsevres;aswellasthegreatlaserpitium。
〃that;too!〃repeatedtheoldmanmorebriskly。〃ah!ishallgoandlookforthem;ihavegatheredthemformerlyonthehillsideofrobaila。〃
myfatherproposedtotakehim。thestrangeracceptedhisproposalwiththanks;andhastenedtocollecttogethertheplantshehadgathered;butallofasuddenheappearedseizedwithascruple。heobservedtohispanionthattheroadhewasgoingwashalfwayupthehill;andledinthedirectionofthecastleofthedamesroyalesatbellevue;thatbygoingtothetophewouldconsequentlyturnoutofhisroad;andthatitwasnotrightheshouldtakethistroubleforastranger。
myfatherinsisteduponitwithhishabitualgood…nature;but;themoreeagernessheshowed;themoreobstinatelytheoldmanrefused;itevenseemedtomyfatherthathisgoodintentionatlastexcitedhissuspicion。hethereforecontentedhimselfwithpointingouttheroadtothestranger;whomhesaluted;andhesoonlostsightofhim。
manyhourspassedby;andhethoughtnomoreofthemeeting。hehadreachedthecopsesofchaville;where;stretchedonthegroundinamossyglade;hereadoncemorethelastvolumeofemile。thedelightofreadingithadsopletelyabsorbedhimthathehadceasedtoseeorhearanythingaroundhim。withhischeeksflushedandhiseyesmoist;herepeatedaloudapassagewhichhadparticularlyaffectedhim。
anexclamationutteredclosebyhimawokehimfromhisecstasy;heraisedhishead;andperceivedthetradesman…lookingpersonhehadmetbeforeonthecrossroadatviroflay。
hewasloadedwithplants;thecollectionofwhichseemedtohaveputhimintohighgood…humor。
〃athousandthanks;sir;〃saidhetomyfather。〃ihavefoundallthatyoutoldmeof;andiamindebtedtoyouforacharmingwalk。〃
myfatherrespectfullyrose;andmadeacivilreply。thestrangerhadgrownquitefamiliar;andevenaskedifhisyoung〃brotherbotanist〃didnotthinkofreturningtoparis。myfatherrepliedintheaffirmative;andopenedhistinboxtoputhisbookbackinit。