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Edward　set　me　on　my　feet。　I　could　see　that　I　was　upright；　but　I　couldn't　feel　my　legs。　I　trudged　forward　
anyway；　until　the　sidewalk　swirled　up　toward　my　face。　Edward's　arms　caught　me　before　I　hit　the　
concrete。　

〃Just　let　me　get　her　upstairs；〃　Edward　said。　〃Then　I'll　leave。〃　

〃No；〃　I　cried；　panicking。　I　hadn't　got　my　answers　yet。　He　had　to　stay　for　at　least　that　much；　didn't　he？　

〃I　won't　be　far；〃　Edward　promised；　whispering　so　low　in　my　ear　that　Charlie　didn't　have　a　hope　of　
hearing。　

I　didn't　hear　Charlie　answer；　but　Edward　headed　into　the　house。　My　open　eyes　only　made　it　till　the　stairs。　
The　last　thing　I　felt　was　Edward's　cool　hands　prying　my　fingers　loose　from　his　shirt。　

23。　THE　TRUTH　




I　HAD　THE　SENSE　THAT　I'D　BEEN　ASLEEP　FOR　A　VERY　long　time—my　body　was　stiff；　like　I　
hadn't　moved　once　through　all　that　time；　either。　My　mind　was　dazed　and　slow；　strange；　colorful　
dreams—dreams　and　nightmares—swirled　dizzily　around　the　inside　of　my　head。　They　were　so　vivid。　The　
horrible　and　the　heavenly；　all　mixed　together　into　a　bizarre　jumble。　There　was　sharp　impatience　and　fear；　
both　part　of　that　frustrating　dream　where　your　feet　can't　move　fast　enough…　And　there　were　plenty　of　
monsters；　red…eyed　fiends　that　were　all　the　more　ghastly　for　their　genteel　civility。　The　dream　was　still　
strong—I　could　even　remember　the　names。　But　the　strongest；　clearest　part　of　the　dream　was　not　the　
horror。　It　was　the　angel　that　was　most　clear。　

It　was　hard　to　let　him　go　and　wake　up。　This　dream　did　not　want　to　be　shoved　away　into　the　vault　of　
dreams　I　refused　to　revisit。　I　struggled　with　it　as　my　mind　became　more　alert；　focusing　on　reality。　I　
couldn't　remember　what　day　of　the　week　it　was；　but　I　was　sure　Jacob　or　school　or　work　or　something　
was　waiting　for　me。　I　inhaled　deeply；　wondering　how　to　face　another　day。　

Something　cold　touched　my　forehead　with　the　softest　pressure。　

I　squeezed　my　eyes　more　tightly　shut。　I　was　still　dreaming；　it　seemed；　and　it　felt　abnormally　real。　I　was　so　
close　to　waking…　any　second　now；　and　it　would　be　gone。　

But　I　realized　that　it　felt　too　real；　too　real　to　be　good　for　me。　The　stone　arms　I　imagined　wrapped　around　

me　were　far　too　substantial。　If　I　let　this　go　any　further；　I'd　be　sorry　for　it　later。　With　a　resigned　sigh；　I　
wrenched　back　my　eyelids　to　dispel　the　illusion。　

〃Oh！〃　I　gasped；　and　threw　my　fists　over　my　eyes。　

Well；　clearly；　I'd　gone　too　far；　it　must　have　been　a　mistake　to　let　my　imagination　get　so　out　of　hand。　
Okay；　so　〃let〃　was　the　wrong　word。　I'd　forced　it　to　get　out　of　hand—pretty　much　stalked　my　
hallucinations—and　now　my　mind　had　snapped。　

It　took　less　than　half　a　second　for　me　to　realize　that；　as　long　as　I　was　truly　insane　now；　I　might　as　well　
enjoy　the　delusions　while　they　were　pleasant。　

I　opened　my　eyes　again—and　Edward　was　still　there；　his　perfect　face　just　inches　away　from　mine。　

〃Did　I　frighten　you？〃　His　low　voice　was　anxious。　This　was　very　good；　as　delusions　went。　The　face；　the　
voice；　the　scent；　everything—it　was　so　much　better　than　drowning。　The　beautiful　figment　of　my　
imagination　watched　my　changing　expressions；　with　alarm。　His　irises　were　pitch…black；　with　bruise…like　
shadows　under　them。　This　surprised　me；　my　hallucinatory　Edwards　were　usually　better　fed。　

I　blinked　twice；　desperately　trying　to　remember　the　last　thing　that　I　was　sure　was　real。　Alice　was　part　of　
my　dream；　and　I　wondered　if　she　had　really　come　back　at　all；　or　if　that　was　just　the　preamble。　I　thought　
she'd　returned　the　day　I'd　nearly　drowned…　

〃Oh；　crap〃　I　croaked。　My　throat　was　thick　with　sleeping。　

〃What's　wrong；　Bella？〃　

I　frowned　at　him　unhappily。　His　face　was　even　more　anxious　than　before。　

〃I'm　dead；　right？〃　I　moaned。　〃I　did　drown。　Crap；　crap；　crap！　This　is　gonna　kill　Charlie。〃　

Edward　frowned；　too。　〃You're　not　dead。〃　

〃Then　why　am　I　not　waking　up？〃　I　challenged；　raising　my　eyebrows。　

〃You　are　awake；　Bella。〃　

I　shook　my　head。　〃Sure；　sure。　That's　what　you　want　me　to　think。　And　then　it　will　be　worse　when　I　do　
wake　up。　If　I　wake　up；　which　I　won't；　because　I'm　dead。　This　is　awful。　Poor　Charlie。　And　Renee　and　
Jake…〃　I　trailed　off　in　horror　at　what　I　had　done。　

〃I　can　see　where　you　might　confuse　me　with　a　nightmare。〃　His　short…lived　smile　was　grim。　〃But　I　can't　
imagine　what　you　could　have　done　to　wind　up　in　hell。　Did　you　commit　many　murders　while　I　was　away？〃　

I　grimaced。　〃Obviously　not。　If　I　was　in　hell；　you　wouldn't　be　with　me。〃　

He　sighed。　

My　head　was　getting　clearer。　My　eyes　flickered　away　from　his　face—unwillingly—for　one　second；　to　the　
dark；　open　window；　and　then　back　to　him。　I　started　to　remember　details…　and　I　felt　a　faint；　unfamiliar　
blush　warm　the　skin　over　my　cheekbones　as　I　slowly　realized　that　Edward　was　really；　truly　here　with　me；　
and　I　was　wasting　time　being　an　idiot。　

〃Did　all　of　that　really　happen；　then？〃　It　was　almost　impossible　to　reassign　my　dream　as　reality。　I　couldn't　
wrap　my　head　around　the　concept。　

〃That　depends。〃　Edward's　smile　was　still　hard。　〃If　you're　referring　to　us　nearly　being　massacred　in　Italy；　
then；　yes。〃　

〃How　strange；〃　I　mused。　〃I　really　went　to　Italy。　Did　you　know　I'd　never　been　farther　east　than　
Albuquerque？〃　

He　rolled　his　eyes。　〃Maybe　you　should　go　back　to　sleep。　You're　not　coherent。〃　

〃I'm　not　tired　anymore。〃　It　was　all　coming　clear　now。　〃What　time　is　it？　How　long　have　I　been　sleeping？〃　

〃It's　just　after　one　in　the　morning。　So；　about　fourteen　hours。〃　

I　stretched　as　he　spoke。　I　was　so　stiff。　

〃Charlie？〃　I　asked。　

Edward　frowned。　〃Sleeping。　You　should　probably　know　that　I'm　breaking　the　rules　right　now。　Well；　not　
technically；　since　he　said　I　was　never　to　walk　through　his　door　again；　and　I　came　in　the　window…　But；　
still；　the　intent　was　clear。〃　

〃Charlie　banned　you　from　the　house？〃　I　asked；　disbelief　quickly　melting　into　fury。　

His　eyes　were　sad。　〃Did　you　expect　anything　else？〃　

My　eyes　were　mad。　I　was　going　to　have　a　few　words　with　my　father—perhaps　it　would　be　a　good　time　
to　remind　him　that　I　was　over　the　legal　age　of　adulthood。　It　didn't　matter　so　much；　of　course；　except　in　
principle。　All　too　soon　there　would　be　no　reason　for　the　prohibition。　I　turned　my　thoughts　to　less　painful　
avenues。　

〃What's　the　story？〃　I　asked；　genuinely　curious；　but　also　trying　desperately　to　keep　the　conversation　
casual；　to　keep　a　firm　grip　on　myself；　so　I　wouldn't　scare　him　away　with　the　frantic；　gnawing　craving　that　
was　raging　inside　me。　

〃What　do　you　mean？〃　

〃What　am　I　telling　Charlie？　What's　my　excuse　for　disappearing　for…　how　long　was　I　gone；　anyway？〃　I　
tried　to　count　the　hours　in　my　head。　

〃Just　three　days。〃　His　eyes　tightened；　but　he　smiled　more　naturally　this　time。　〃Actually；　I　was　hoping　you　
might　have　a　good　explanation。　I've　got　nothing。〃　

I　groaned。　〃Fabulous。〃　

〃Well；　maybe　Alice　will　come　up　with　something；〃　he　offered；　trying　to　comfort　me。　

And　I　was　comforted。　Who　cared　what　I　had　to　deal　with　later？　Every　second　that　he　was　here—so　
close；　his　flawless　face　glowing　in　the　dim　light　from　the　numbers　on　my　alarm　clock—was　precious　and　
not　to　be　wasted。　

〃So；〃　I　began；　picking　the　least　important—though　still　vitally　interesting—question　to　start　with。　I　was　
safely　delivered　home；　and　he　might　decide　to　leave　at　any　moment。　I　had　to　keep　him　talking。　Besides；　
this　temporary　heaven　wasn't　entirely　complete　without　the　sound　of　his　voice。　〃What　have　you　been　
doing；　up　until　three　days　ago？〃　

His　face　turned　wary　in　an　instant。　〃Nothing　terribly　exciting。〃　

〃Of　course　not；〃　I　mumbled。　

〃Why　are　you　making　that　face？〃　

〃Well…〃　I　pursed　my　lips；　considering。　〃If　you　were；　after　all；　just　a　dream；　that's　exactly　the　kind　of　thing　
you　would　say。　My　imagination　must　be　used　up。〃　

He　sighed。　〃If　I　tell　you；　will　you　finally　believe　that　you're　not　having　a　nightmare？〃　

〃Nightmare！〃　I　repeated　scornfully。　He　waited　for　my　answer。　〃Maybe；〃　I　said　after　a　second　of　thought。　
〃If　you　tell　me。〃　

〃I　was…　hunting。〃　

〃Is　that　the　best　you　can　do？〃　I　criticized。　〃That　definitely　doesn't　prove　I'm　awake。〃　

He　hesitated；　and　then　spoke　slowly；　choosing　his　words　with　care。　〃I　wasn't　hunting　fot　food…　I　was　
actually　trying　my　hand　at…　tracking。　I'm　not　very　good　at　it。〃　

〃What　were　you　tracking？〃　I　asked；　intrigued。　

〃Nothing　of　consequence。〃　His　words　didn't　match　his　expression；　he　looked　upset；　uncomfortable。　

〃I　don't　understand。〃　

He　hesitated；　his　face；　shining　with　an　odd　green　cast　from　the　light　of　the　clock；　was　torn。　

〃I—〃　He　took　a　deep　breath。　〃I　owe　you　an　apology。　No；　of　course　I　owe　you　much；　much　more　than　
that。　But　you　have　to　know；〃—the　words　began　to　flow　so　fast；　the　way　I　remembered　he　spoke　
sometimes　when　he　was　agitated；　that　I　really　had　to　concentrate　to　catch　them　all—〃that　I　had　no　idea。　I　
didn't　realize　the　mess　I　was　leaving　behind。　I　thought　it　was　safe　for　you　here。　So　safe。　I　had　no　idea　that　
Victoria；〃—his　lips　curled　back　when　he　said　the　name—〃would　come　back。　I'll　admit；　when　I　saw　her　
that　one　time；　I　was　paying　much　more　attention　to　James's　thoughts。　But　I　just　didn't　see　th