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goodness is roasted out of it�拭 �And can't you see that all that nice�察 �red
gravy is completely dried away��'
'Well�察�I think the BEEF will suit you。'
The beef was set before him�察�and he began to carve�察�but with the most
rueful expressions of discontent。
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'What is the matter with the BEEF�察 �Mr。 Bloomfield�拭 �I'm sure I
thought it was very nice。'
'And so it WAS very nice。 A nicer joint could not be�察�but it is QUITE
spoiled��' replied he�察�dolefully。
'How so��'
'How so� �Why�察�don't you see how it is cut�拭 �Dear ´ dear� �it is quite
shocking��'
'They must have cut it wrong in the kitchen�察�then�察�for I'm sure I carved
it quite properly here�察�yesterday。'
'No DOUBT they cut it wrong in the kitchen ´ the savages� �Dear ´
dear� �Did ever any one see such a fine piece of beef so completely
ruined�拭 �But remember that�察 �in future�察 �when a decent dish leaves this
table�察 �they shall not TOUCH it in the kitchen。 Remember THAT�察 �Mrs。
Bloomfield��'
Notwithstanding the ruinous state of the beef�察�the gentleman managed
to out himself some delicate slices�察�part of which he ate in silence。 When
he next spoke�察�it was�察�in a less querulous tone�察�to ask what there was for
dinner。
'Turkey and grouse��' was the concise reply。
'And what besides��'
'Fish。'
'What kind of fish��'
'I don't know。'
'YOU DON'T KNOW��' cried he�察�looking solemnly up from his plate�察�
and suspending his knife and fork in astonishment。
'No。 I told the cook to get some fish ´ I did not particularize what。'
'Well�察 �that beats everything� �A lady professes to keep house�察 �and
doesn't even know what fish is for dinner� �professes to order fish�察 �and
doesn't specify what��'
'Perhaps�察�Mr。 Bloomfield�察�you will order dinner yourself in future。'
Nothing more was said�察 �and I was very glad to get out of the room
with my pupils�察�for I never felt so ashamed and uncomfortable in my life
for anything that was not my own fault。
In the afternoon we applied to lessons again�此 �then went out again�察�
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then had tea in the schoolroom�察�then I dressed Mary Ann for dessert�察�and
when she and her brother had gone down to the dining´ room�察�I took the
opportunity of beginning a letter to my dear friends at home�此 �but the
children came up before I had half completed it。 At seven I had to put
Mary Ann to bed�察�then I played with Tom till eight�察�when he�察�too�察�went�察�
and I finished my letter and unpacked my clothes�察 �which I had hitherto
found no opportunity for doing�察�and�察�finally�察�went to bed myself。
But this is a very favourable specimen of a day's proceedings。
My task of instruction and surveillance�察�instead of becoming easier as
my charges and I got better accustomed to each other�察 �became more
arduous as their characters unfolded。 The name of governess�察 �I soon
found�察 �was a mere mockery as applied to me�此 �my pupils had no more
notion of obedience than a wild�察�unbroken colt。 The habitual fear of their
father's peevish temper�察�and the dread of the punishments he was wont to
inflict when irritated�察�kept them generally within bounds in his immediate
presence。 The girls�察�too�察�had some fear of their mother's anger�察�and the
boy might occasionally be bribed to do as she bid him by the hope of
reward�察�but I had no rewards to offer�察�and as for punishments�察�I was given
to understand�察 �the parents reserved that privilege to themselves�察 �and yet
they expected me to keep my pupils in order。 Other children might be
guided by the fear of anger and the desire of approbation�察�but neither the
one nor the other had any effect upon these。
Master Tom�察�not content with refusing to be ruled�察�must needs set up
as a ruler�察�and manifested a determination to keep�察�not only his sisters�察�but
his governess in order�察�by violent manual and pedal applications�察�and�察�as
he was a tall�察 �strong boy of his years�察 �this occasioned no trifling
inconvenience。 A few sound boxes on the ear�察�on such occasions�察�might
have settled the matter easily enough�此 �but as�察�in that case�察�he might make
up some story to his mother which she would be sure to believe�察�as she
had such unshaken faith in his veracity ´ though I had already discovered
it to be by no means unimpeachable ´ I determined to refrain from striking
him�察 �even in self´defence�察 �and�察 �in his most violent moods�察 �my only
resource was to throw him on his back and hold his hands and feet till the
frenzy was somewhat abated。 To the difficulty of preventing him from
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doing what he ought not�察 �was added that of forcing him to do what he
ought。 Often he would positively refuse to learn�察�or to repeat his lessons�察�
or even to look at his book。 Here�察�again�察�a good birch rod might have been
serviceable�察�but�察�as my powers were so limited�察�I must make the best use
of what I had。
As there were no settled hours for study and play�察�I resolved to give
my pupils a certain task�察 �which�察 �with moderate attention�察 �they could
perform in a short time�察�and till this was done�察�however weary I was�察�or
however perverse they might be�察 �nothing short of parental interference
should induce me to suffer them to leave the schoolroom�察�even if I should
sit with my chair against the door to keep them in。 Patience�察�Firmness�察�
and Perseverance were my only weapons�察�and these I resolved to use to
the utmost。 I determined always strictly to fulfil the threats and promises
I made�察 �and�察 �to that end�察 �I must be cautious to threaten and promise
nothing that I could not perform。 Then�察�I would carefully refrain from all
useless irritability and indulgence of my own ill´temper�此 �when they
behaved tolerably�察�I would be as kind and obliging as it was in my power
to be�察�in order to make the widest possible distinction between good and
bad conduct�察 �I would reason with them�察 �too�察 �in the simplest and most
effective manner。 When I reproved them�察 �or refused to gratify their
wishes�察 �after a glaring fault�察 �it should be more in sorrow than in anger�此�
their little hymns and prayers I would make plain and clear to their
understanding�察�when they said their prayers at night and asked pardon for
their offences�察�I would remind them of the sins of the past day�察�solemnly�察�
but in perfect kindness�察�to avoid raising a spirit of opposition�察�penitential
hymns should be said by the naughty�察�cheerful ones by the comparatively
good�察�and every kind of instruction I would convey to them�察�as much as
possible�察�by entertaining discourse ´ apparently with no other object than
their present amusement in view。
By these means I hoped in time both to benefit the children and to gain
the approbation of their parents�察�and also to convince my friends at home
that I was not so wanting in skill and prudence as they supposed。 I knew
the difficulties I had to contend with were great�察 �but I knew ��at least I
believed�� unremitting patience and perseverance could overcome them�察�
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and night and morning I implored Divine assistance to this end。 But
either the children were so incorrigible�察 �the parents so unreasonable�察 �or
myself so mistaken in my views�察�or so unable to carry them out�察�that my
best intentions and most strenuous efforts seemed productive of no better
result than sport to the children�察 �dissatisfaction to their parents�察 �and
torment to myself。
The task of instruction was as arduous for the body as the mind。 I
had to run after my pupils to catch them�察�to carry or drag the