anner.bloodandgold(v2)-第60节

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　　　〃Tell　me　everything；　Piero；〃　I　said；　winking　at　him；　and　smiling。　〃e　on。　What　do　you　think？〃
　　　〃The　colors；　Master；　they　were　beautiful！　When　will　it　be　time　for　us　to　work　with　you？　I'm　more　skilled　than　you　might　think。〃
　　　〃I　remember；　Piero；〃　I　said；　referring　to　the　shop　from　which　he'd　e。　〃I'll　call　upon　you　soon　enough。〃
　　　In　fact；　I　called　upon　them　the　very　next　night。
　　　Having　severe　doubts　about　subject　matter　more　than　anything　else；　I　resolved　to　follow　Botticelli　in　that　regard。
　　　I　chose　the　Lamentation　for　my　subject　matter。　And　I　made　my　Christ　as　tender　and　vulnerable　as　I　could　conceivably　do　it；　and　I　surrounded　him　with　countless　mourners。　Pagan　that　I　was；　I　didn't　know　who　was　supposed　to　be　there！　And　so　I　created　an　immense　and　varied　crowd　of　weeping　mortals…all　in　Florentine　dress…to　lament　the　dead　Jesus；　and　angels　in　the　sky　torn　with　anguish　much　like　the　angels　of　the　painter　Giotto　whose　work　I　had　seen　in　some　Italian　city　the　name　of　which　I　could　not　recall。
　　　My　apprentices　were　quite　astonished　by　the　work　and　so　were　the　teachers；　whom　I　invited　into　the　huge　workroom　for　the　initial　view。　Once　again　the　faces　I　painted　elicited　special　ment　but　so　did　the　bizarre　qualities　of　the　painting…the　inordinate　amount　of　color　and　gold…and　small　touches　I　had　added；　such　as　insects　here　and　there。
　　　I　realized　something。　I　was　free。　I　could　paint　what　I　wanted。　Nobody　was　going　to　be　the　wiser。　But　then　again；　I　thought；　perhaps　dial's　not　true。
　　　It　was　desperately　important　for　me　to　remain　in　the　middle　of　Venice。　I　did　not　want　to　lose　my　foothold　in　the　warm；　loving　world。
　　　I　drifted　out　in　the　following　weeks　to　all　the　churches　once　more　in　search　of　inspiration　for　my　paintings；　and　I　studied　many　a　grotesque　and　bizarre　picture　which　amazed　me　almost　as　much　as　my　own　work。
　　　An　artist　by　the　name　of　Carpaccio　had　created　a　work　called　Meditation　on　the　Passion　which　revealed　the　body　of　the　dead　Christ　end　ironed　against　a　fantastical　landscape；　and　flanked　by　two　white…haired　saints　who　peered　at　the　viewer　as　if　Christ　were　not　there！
　　　In　the　work　of　a　painter　named　Grivelli；　I　found　a　truly　grotesque　picture　of　the　dead　Savior；　flanked　by　two　angels　who　looked　like　monsters。　And　the　same　painter　had　done　a　Madonna　almost　as　lovely　and　lifelike　as　Botticelli's　goddesses　or　nymphs。
　　　I　arose　night　after　night　hungry　not　for　blood；　though　I　certainly　fed　when　I　had　to　feed；　but　for　my　time　in　the　workshop；　and　soon　my　paintings；　all　of　them　on　large　wooden　panels；　were　propped　all　over　the　enormous　house。
　　　Finally；　because　I　could　keep　track　of　them　no　longer；　and　went　on　to　things　new；　rather　than　to　perfect　the　old；　I　gave　in　to　Vincenzo　that　he　might　have　these　works　properly　mounted　as　he　wished。
　　　Meanwhile　our　whole　palazzo；　though　it　had　bee　famous　in　Venice　as　〃a　strange　place；〃　remained　somewhat　closed　to　the　world。
　　　Undoubtedly　my　hired　teachers　spoke　of　their　days　and　evenings　in　the　pany　of　Marius　de　Romanus；　and　all　our　servants　gossiped；　no　question　of　it；　and　I　did　not　seek　to　put　an　end　to　such　talk。
　　　But　I　did　not　admit　the　true　citizens　of　Venice。　I　did　not　lay　put　the　banquet　table　as　I　had　done　in　the　old　nights。　I　did　not　open　the　doors。
　　　Yet　all　the　while　I　was　longing　to　do　it。　I　wanted　the　fashionable　world　of　the　city　to　be　received　under　my　roof。
　　　What　I　did　instead　of　extending　invitations　was　to　accept　those　I　received。
　　　Often　in　the　early　evening；　when　I　didn't　want　to　dine　with　my　children；　and　long　before　I　needed　to　begin　painting　furiously；　I　went　to　other　palaces　where　feasting　was　in　progress；　and　I　entered；　whispering　my　name　when　asked；　but　more　often　being　received　without　question　and　discovering　that　the　guests　were　eager　to　have　me　among　them　and　had　heard　of　my　paintings　and　of　my　famous　little　school　where　the　apprentices　hardly　did　any　work　at　all。
　　　Of　course　I　kept　to　the　shadows；　spoke　in　vague　but　gentle　words；　read　minds　well　enough　to　make　the　most　clever　conversation　and　in　general　almost　lost　my　wits　so　great　was　this　love　to　me；　this　convivial　reception　of　me　which　was　nothing　more　than　most　of　the　noblemen　of　Venice　took　for　granted　every　night　of　their　lives。
　　　I　don't　know　how　many　months　passed　in　this　way。　Two　of　my　students　went　on　to　Padua。　I　went　out　into　the　city　and　found　four　more。　Vincenzo　showed　no　signs　of　ill　health。　I　hired　new　and　better　teachers　from　time　to　time。　I　painted　fiercely。　So　on　it　went。
　　　Let　me　say　a　year　or　two　had　gone　by　before　I　was　told　of　a　very　lovely　and　brilliant　young　woman　who　maintained　a　house　always　open　to　poets　and　playwrights　and　clever　philosophers　who　could　make　their　visits　worth　her　while。
　　　Understand　the　payment　in　question　was　not　a　manner　of　money；　it　was　that　one　had　to　be　interesting　to　be　admitted　to　this　woman's　pany；　poems　had　to　be　lyrical　and　meaningful；　there　had　to　be　wit　in　conversation；　one　could　play　the　virginal　or　the　lute　only　if　one　knew　how。
　　　I　was　fiercely　curious　as　to　the　identity　of　this　creature；　and　the　general　sweetness　of　the　reports　of　her。
　　　And　so　passing　her　house；　I　listened；　and　I　heard　her　voice　threading　through　the　voices　of　those　around　her；　and　I　knew　her　to　be　a　mere　child；　but　one　filled　with　anguish　and　secrets；　all　of　which　she　concealed　with　immense　skill　behind　a　graceful　manner　and　a　beautiful　face。
　　　
　　　
　　　How　beautiful；　I　had　no　idea；　until　I　mounted　the　steps；　entered　her　rooms　boldly　and　saw　her　for　myself。
　　　When　I　came　into　the　room；　she　had　her　back　to　me；　and　turned　as　if　my　arrival　had　made　some　noise　which　it　had　not。　I　saw　her　in　profile　and　then　pletely　as　she　rose　to　greet　me；　and　I　could　not　speak　for　a　moment；　so　great　was　the　impression　on　my　mind　of　her　form　and　face。
　　　That　Botticelli　hadn't　painted　her　was　a　mere　accident。　Indeed　he　might　well　have　done　so。　She　looked　so　very　like　his　women　that　all　other　thoughts　left　my　mind。　I　saw　her　oval　face；　her　oval　eyes；　and　her　thick　wavy　blond　hair；　interwound　with　long　strings　of　tiny　pearls；　and　the　fine　shape　of　her　body　with　exquisitely　molded　arms　and　breasts。
　　　〃Yes；　like　Botticelli；〃　she　said；　smiling　as　if　I'd　spoken　it。
　　　Again；　I　could　say　nothing。　I　was　the　one　who　read　minds；　and　yet　this　child；　this　woman　of　nineteen　pr　twenty　years　seemed　to　have　read　mine。　But　did　she　know　how　much　I　loved　Botticelli？　That　she　could　not　know。
　　　She　went　on　gaily；　reaching　out　for　my　hand　with　both　of　hers。
　　　〃Everyone　says　it；〃　she　said；　〃and　I'm　honored。　You　plight　say　I　dress　my　hair　this　way　on　account　of　Botticelli。　You　know　I　was　born　in　Florence；　but　that's　not　worth　talking　about　here　in　Venice；　is　it？　You're　Marius　de　Romanus。　I　was　wondering　how　long　it　would　be　before　you　came。〃
　　　〃Thank　you　for　receiving　me；〃　I　said。　〃I　fear　I　e　with　nothing。〃　I　was　still　shocked　by　her　beauty；　shocked　by　the　sound　of　her　voice。　〃What　have　I　to　offer　you？〃　I　asked。　〃I　have　no　poems；　nor　clever　stories　about　the　state　of　things。　Tomorrow；　I　shall　have　my　servants　bring　you　the　best　wine　I　have　in　my　house。　But　what　is　that　to　you？〃
　　　〃Wine？〃　she　repeated。　〃I　don't　want　gifts　of　wine　from　you；　Marius。
　　　　Paint　my　picture。　Paint　the　pearls　interwound　in　my　hair；　I　should　love　it。〃
　　　There　was　soft　laughter　all　around　the　room。　I　gazed　musingly　at　the　others。　The　candlelight　was　dim　even　for　me。　How　rich　it　all　seemed；　these　naive　poets　and　students　of　the　classics；　this　indescribably　beautiful　woman；　and　the　room　itself　with　all　the　usual　splendid　trappings；　and　time　passing　slowly　as　though　the　moments　had　some　meaning　and　were　not　a　sentence　of　penitence　and　grief。
　　　I　was　in　my　glory。　I　realized　it　quite　suddenly　and　then　something　else　struck　me。
　　　This　young　woman　was　in　her　glory　too。
　　　Something　sordid　and　evil　lay　behind　her　recent　fortunes　here；　yet　she　displayed　nothing　of　the　desperation　she　must　surely　feel。
　　　I　tried　to　read　her　mind　and　then　I　chose　not　to　do　it！　I　didn't　want　anything　but　this　moment。
　　　I　wanted　to　see　this　woman　as　she　wanted　me　to　see　her…young；　infinitely　kind；　yet　utterly　well　defended…a　panion　for　the　night's　cheerful　gatherings；　mysterious　mistress　of　her　own　house。
　　　Indeed；　I　saw　another　great　drawing　room　adjacent　to　this　one；　and　beyond　it　a　marvelously　decorated　bedroom　with　a　bed　made　of　golden　swans　and　gold…threaded　silk。
　　　Why　this　display　if　not　to　tell　everyone　that　in　that　bed；　this　woman　slept　alone？　No　one　was　ever　to　presume　to　cross　that　threshold；　but　all　might　see　where　the　maiden　retired　of　her　own　accord。
　　　〃Why　do　you　stare　at　me？〃　she　asked　me。　〃Why　do　you　look　about　yourself　as　if　this　is　a　strange　place　to　you　when　surely　it's　not？　〃
　　　〃All　of　Venice　is　lovely　to　me；〃　I　answered；　making　my　voice　soft　and　confidential　so　that　it　would　not　be　for　the　whole　room。
　　　〃Yes；　isn't　it？〃　she　said；　smiling　exquisitely。　〃I　too　love　it。　I'll　never　return　to　Florence。　But　will　you　paint　a　picture　of　me？〃
　　　〃Perhaps　I　will；〃　I　answered。　〃I　don't　know　your　name。〃
　　　〃You're　not　serious；〃　she　said；　smiling　again。　I　realized　suddenly　how　very　worldly　she　was。　〃You　didn't　e　here　not　knowing　my　n