rh.theassassinsapprentice-第45节
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morning on my education。 To Burrich I muttered； 〃Not formally。 But we've met。〃
He surprised me by laughing。 〃Your face is a picture； Fitz。 I can see she hasn't changed much； just by your reaction。 The first time I met her was in her father's orchard。 She was sitting up in a tree。 She demanded that I remove a splinter from her foot； and took her shoe and stocking off right there so I could do it。 Right there in front of me。 And she had no idea at all of who I was。 Nor I； her。 I thought she was a lady's maid。 That was years ago； of course； and even a few years before my prince met her。 I suppose I wasn't much older than you are now。〃 He paused； and his face softened。 〃And she had a wretched little dog she always carried about with her in a basket。 It was always wheezing and retching up wads of its own fur。 Its name was Featherduster。〃 He paused a moment； and smiled almost fondly。 〃What a thing to remember； after all these years。〃
〃Did she like you when she first met you？〃 I asked tactlessly。
Burrich looked at me and his eyes became opaque； the man disappearing behind the gaze。 〃Better than she does now；〃 he said abruptly。 〃But that's of small import。 Let's hear it； Fitz。 What does she think of you？〃
Now there was another question。 I plunged into an accounting of our meetings； glossing over details as much as I dared。 I was halfway through my garden encounter when Burrich held up a hand。
〃Stop；〃 he said quietly。
I fell silent。
〃When you cut pieces out of the truth to avoid looking like a fool； you end up sounding like a moron instead。 Let's start again。〃
So I did； and spared him nothing； of either my behavior or the lady's ments。 When I was finished； I waited for his judgment。 Instead； he reached out and stroked the palfrey's nose。 〃Some things are changed by time；〃 he said at last。 〃And others are not。〃 He sighed。 〃Well； Fitz； you have a way of presenting yourself to the very people you should most ardently avoid。 I am sure there will be consequences from this； but I have not the slightest idea what they will be。 That being so； there's no point to worrying。 Let's see the rat dog's pups。 You say she had six？〃
〃And all survived；〃 I said proudly； for the bitch had a history of difficult whelping。
〃Let's just hope we do as well for ourselves；〃 Burrich muttered as we walked through the stables； but when I glanced up at him； surprised； he seemed not to have been talking to me at all。
〃I'd have thought you'd have the good sense to avoid her；〃 Chade grumbled at me。
It was not the greeting I had looked for after more than two months' absence from his chambers。 〃I didn't know it was the Lady Patience。 I'm surprised there was not gossip about her arrival。〃
〃She strenuously objects to gossip；〃 Chade informed me。 He sat in his chair before the small fire in the fireplace。 Chade's chambers were chilly； and he was ever vulnerable to cold。 He looked weary as well tonight； worn by whatever he had been doing in the weeks since I'd last seen him。 His hands； especially； looked old； bony and lumpy about the knuckles。 He took a sip of his wine and continued。 〃And she has her eccentric little ways of dealing with those who talk about her behind her back。 She has always insisted on privacy for herself。 It is one reason she would have made a very poor queen。 Not that Chivalry cared。 That was a marriage he made for himself rather than for politics。 I think it was the first major disappointment he dealt his father。 After that； nothing he did ever pletely pleased Shrewd。〃
I sat still as a mouse。 Slink came and perched on my knee。 It was rare to hear Chade so talkative； especially about matters relating to the royal family。 I scarcely breathed for fear of interrupting him。
〃Sometimes I think there was something in Patience that Chivalry instinctively knew he needed。 He was a thoughtful； orderly man； always correct in his manners； always aware of precisely what was going on around him。 He was chivalrous； boy； in the best sense of that word。 He did not give in to ugly or petty impulses。 That meant he exuded a certain air of restraint at all times。 So those who did not know him well thought him cold or cavalier。
〃And then he met this girl 。。。 and she was scarcely more than a girl。 And there was no more substance to her than to cobwebs and sea foam。 Thoughts and tongue always flying from this to that； nitterdy…natterdy； with never a pause or connection I could see。 It used to exhaust me just to listen to her。 But Chivalry would smile； and marvel。 Perhaps it was that she had absolutely no awe of him。 Perhaps it was that she didn't seem particularly eager to win him。 But with a score of more eligible ladies； of better birth and brighter brains； pursuing him； he chose Patience。
And it wasn't even timely for him to wed； when he took her to wife； he shut the gate on a dozen possible alliances that a wife could have brought him。 There was no good reason for him to get married at that time。 Not one。〃
〃Except that he wanted to；〃 I said； and then I could have bitten out my tongue。 For Chade nodded； and then gave himself a bit of a shake。 He took his gaze off the fire and looked at me。
〃Well。 Enough of that。 I won't ask you how you made such an impression on her； or what changed her heart toward you。 But last week she came to Shrewd and demanded that you be recognized as Chivalry's son and heir and given an education appropriate to a prince。〃
I was dizzied。 Did the wall tapestries move before me； or was it a trick of my eyes？
〃Of course he refused；〃 Chade continued mercilessly。 〃He tried to explain to her why such a thing is totally impossible。 All she kept saying was； 'But you are the King。 How can it be impossible for you？' 'The nobles would never accept him。 It would mean civil war。 And think what it would do to an unprepared boy； to plunge him suddenly into this。' So he told her。〃
〃Oh；〃 I said quietly。 I couldn't remember what I had felt for the one instant。 Elation？ Anger？ Fear？ I only knew that the feeling was gone now； and I felt oddly stripped and humiliated that I had felt anything at all。
〃Patience； of course； was not convinced at all。 'Prepare the boy；' she told the King。 'And when he is ready； judge for yourself。' Only Patience would ask such a thing； and in front of both Verity and Regal。 Verity listened quietly； knowing how it must end； but Regal was livid。 He bees overwrought far too easily。 Even an idiot should know Shrewd could not accede to Patience's demand。 But he knows when to promise。 In all else； he gave way to her； mostly I think to stop her tongue。〃
〃In all else？〃 I repeated stupidly。
〃Some for our good； some for our detriment。 Or at least； for our damned inconvenience。〃 Chade sounded both annoyed and elated。 〃I hope you can find more hours in the day； boy； for I'm not willing to sacrifice any of my plans for hers。 Patience has demanded that you be educated as befits your bloodlines。 And she has vowed to undertake such educating herself。 Music； poetry； dance； song； manners 。。。 I hope you've a better tolerance for it than I did。 Though it never seemed to hurt Chivalry。 Sometimes he even put such knowledge to good use。 But it will take up a good part of your day。 You'll be acting as page for Patience as well。 You're old for it； but she insisted。 Personally； I think she regrets much and is trying to make up for lost time； something that never works。 You'll have to cut back your weapons training。 And Burrich will have to find himself another stable boy。〃
I didn't give a peg about the weapons training。 As Chade had often pointed out to me； a really good assassin worked close and quietly。 If I learned my trade well； I wouldn't be swinging a long blade at anyone。 But my time with Burrich … again I had the odd sensation of not knowing how I felt。 I hated Burrich。 Sometimes。 He was overbearing； dictatorial； and insensitive。 He expected me to be perfect； yet bluntly told me that I would never be rewarded for it。 But he was also open； and blunt； and believed I could achieve what he demanded 。。。。
〃You're probably wondering what advantage she won us；〃 Chade went on obliviously。 I heard suppressed excitement in his voice。 〃It's something I've tried for twice for you； and been twice refused。 But Patience nattered at Shrewd until he surrendered。 It's the Skill； boy。 You're to be trained in the Skill。〃
〃The Skill；〃 I repeated； without sense of what I was saying。 It was all going too fast for me。
〃Yes。〃
I scrabbled to find thoughts。 〃Burrich spoke of it to me； once。 A long time ago。〃 Abruptly I remembered the context of that conversation。 After Nosy accidentally betrayed us。 He had spoken of it as the opposite of whatever was the sense I shared with animals。 The same sense had revealed to me the change in the folk of Forge。 Would training in one free me of the other？ Or would it be a deprivation？ I thought of the kinship that I had shared with horses and dogs when I knew Burrich was not around。 I remembered Nosy； in a mingling of warmth and grief。 I had never been so close； before or since； to another living creature。 Would this
