iancaldwell&dustinthomason.theruleoffour-第38节
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od； inseparable as we seem。 It's a law of motion； a fact of physics that Charlie could name； no different from the stages of white dwarfs and red giants。 Like all things in the universe； we are destined from birth to diverge。 Time is simply the yardstick of our separation。 If we are particles in a sea of distance； exploded from an original whole； then there is a science to our solitude。 We are lonely in proportion to our years。
Chapter 16
The summer after sixth grade； my father sent me to camp； a two…week affair for wayward ex…Boy Scouts； the purpose of which； I realize now； was to get me reinstated among my merit…badge peers。 I'd been de…kerchiefed the year before for lighting bottle rockets in Willy Carlson's tent； and more specifically for saying I still thought it was funny even after Willy's weak constitution and excitable bladder were explained to me。 Time had passed； and； my parents hoped； indiscretions had been forgotten。 In the hubbub surrounding twelve…year…old Jake Ferguson； whose pornographic ic book business had turned the morally constipating experience of Scout camp into a lucrative and horizon…broadening enterprise； I was demoted to lesser…evil status。 Fourteen days on the south shore of Lake Erie； my parents seemed to think； would bring me back into the fold。
It took less than ninety…six hours to prove them wrong。 Halfway through the first week； a scoutmaster dropped me back at home and drove off in a wordless huff。 I'd been dishonorably discharged； this time for teaching campmates an immoral song。 A three…page letter from the camp director； heavy with correctional； parole…style adjectives； ranked me among the worst Boy Scout recidivists of greater central Ohio。 Unsure what a recidivist was； I told my parents what I'd done。
A troop of Girl Scouts had met us for a day of canoeing； singing a song I knew from my sisters' own dark days of camps and badges： Make new friends； but keep the old； one is silver； the other is gold。 Having inherited a set of alternative lyrics； I shared them with my fellow men。
Make no friends； and kick the old。
All I want is silver and gold。
Those lines alone were hardly grounds for expulsion； but Willy Carlson； in a brilliant stroke of retribution； gave the oldest camp counselor a kick as he bent over to light a campfire； then blamed the act on my influence； the new lyrics having conjured his foot into the old man's ass。 Within hours； the full machinery of Boy Scout justice was in motion； and both of us were packing our bags。
Only two things came out of that experience； other than my permanent retirement from scouting。 First； I became good friends with Willy Carlson； whose excitable bladder； it turned out； was nothing but another lie he'd told the scoutmasters to get me kicked out the first time around。 You had to like the guy。 And second； I got a stern lecture from my mother； the motivation for which I never understood until my Princeton years were almost over。 It wasn't the first line of the revised lyrics she objected to； despite the fact that； technically； the kicking of old people was what got me bagged。 It was the strange mania of the second line that she read into。
〃Why silver and gold？〃 she said； sitting me down in the small back room of the bookstore； where she kept the overstocks and old filing cabinets。
〃What do you mean？〃 I asked。 There was an outdated calendar on the wall from the Columbus Museum of Art； turned to the month of May； showing an Edward Hopper painting of a woman sitting alone in her bed。 I couldn't help staring at it。
〃Why not bottle rockets？〃 she asked。 〃Or campfires？〃
〃Because those don't work。〃 I remember feeling annoyed； the answers seemed so obvious。 〃The last word has to rhyme with old。〃
〃Listen to me； Tom。〃 My mother placed a hand on my chin and turned my head until I was facing her。 Her hair seemed gold in the right light； the same way the woman's did in the Hopper painting。 〃It's unnatural。 A boy your age shouldn't care about silver and gold。〃
〃I don't。 What does it matter？〃
〃Because every desire has its proper object。〃
It sounded like something I'd been told once at Sunday school。 〃What's that supposed to mean？〃
〃It means people spend their lives wanting things they shouldn't。 The world confuses them into taking their love and aiming it where it doesn't belong。〃 She adjusted the neck on her sundress； then sat beside me。 〃All it takes to be happy is to love the right things； in the right amounts。 Not money。 Not books。 People。 Adults who don't understand that never feel fulfilled。 I don't want you to turn out like that。〃
Why it meant so much to her； this correct aiming of my passions； I never understood。 I just nodded in a solemn way； promised that I would never sing about precious metals again； and sensed that my mother was pacified。
But precious metals were never the problem。 What I realize now is that my mother was waging a bigger war； trying to save me from something worse： being my father。 My father's fixation on the Hypnerotomachia was the essence of misguided passion to her； and she struggled with it until the day he died。 She believed； I think； that his love for the book was nothing but a perversion； a crooked deflection； of his love for his wife and family。 No amount of force or persuasion could correct it； and I suppose it was when she knew she'd lost the battle to realign my father's life that she brought the fight to me。
How well I kept my promise； I'm afraid to say。 The stubbornness of boys in their childish ways must be a prodigy to women； who learn faster than angels how not to misbehave。 Throughout my childhood there was a monopoly on mistakes in my house； and I was its Rockefeller。 I never imagined the magnitude of the error my mother was warning me against； until I had the misfortune of falling into it。 By that time； though； it was Katie； and not my family； who had to suffer for it。
January came； and Colonna's first riddle gave way to another； then a third。 Paul knew where to look for them； having detected a pattern in the Hypnerotomachia ： following a regular cycle； the chapters grew in length from five or ten pages； to twenty； thirty； or even forty。 The shorter chapters came in a row； three or four at a time； while the long ones were more solitary。 When graphed； the long periods of low intensity were interrupted by sharp upticks in chapter length； creating a visual profile we both came to conceive of as the Hypnerotomachia's pulse。 The pattern continued until the first half of the book ended； at which point a strange； muddled sequence began； no chapter exceeding eleven pages。
Paul quickly made sense of it； using our success with Moses and his horns： each spike of long； solitary chapters provided a riddle； the riddle's solution； its cipher； was then applied to the run of short chapters following it； yielding the next part of Colonna's message。 The second half of the book； Paul guessed； must be filler； just as the opening chapters of the first half appeared to be： a distraction to maintain the impression of narrative in an otherwise fragmented story。
We divided the labor between us。 Paul hunted for riddles in the longer chapters； leaving each one behind for me to solve。 The first I tackled was this： What is the smallest harmony of a great victory？
〃It makes me think of Pythagoras；〃 Katie said when I told her over pound cake and hot chocolate at Small World Coffee。 〃Everything with Pythagoras was harmonies。 Astronomy； virtue； math 。 。 。〃
〃I think it has to do with warfare；〃 I countered； having spent some time at Firestone looking at Renaissance texts on engineering。 Leonardo； in a letter to the Duke of Milan； claimed he could build impenetrable chariots； like Renaissance tanks； along with portable mortars and great catapults for use in sieges。 Philosophy and technology were merging： there was a mathematics to victory； a set of proportions to the perfect war machine。 It was only a small step from math into music。
The next morning； Katie woke me at 7：30 to go jogging before her 9：00 class。
〃Warfare doesn't make sense；〃 she said； beginning to parse the riddle as only a philosophy major could。 〃There are two parts to the question： smallest harmony and great victory。 Great victory could mean anything。 You should focus on the clearer part。 Smallest harmony has fewer concrete meanings。〃
I grumbled as we passed the Dinky train station on our way to the west of campus； envying the stray passengers waiting for the 7：43。 Running and thinking were unnatural things to be doing while the sun was still rising； and she knew the fog wouldn't burn off my thoughts until noon。 This was just taking advantage； punishing me for not taking Pythagoras seriously。
〃So what are you suggesting？〃 I asked。
She didn't even seem to be breathing hard。 〃We'll stop at Firestone on our way back around。 I'll show you where I think you should look。〃
It continued like that for two weeks； waking at dawn for calisthenics and brainteasers； telling Katie my half…baked ideas about Colonna so that she would have to slow down to listen； then forcing myself to run faster so that she would have less time to tell me how I was wrong。 We were spending the last part of so many evenings w
